Chester Bennington and Linkin Park

TW: this post talks about suicide and mental health. Please take care of yourself first

My heart is hurting this week. As I’m sure several people have let you know already, Chester Bennington, the lead singer of Linkin Park (and the Stone Temple Pilots for a hot minute), hung himself Thursday morning. His memory is survived by a loving wife and 6 amazing children.

As I’ve talked about with other singers like Prince or George Michael, this one hurt. This one struck close to home and was gut wrenching. Similar to Bennington, I’ve struggled with mental health, suicidal thoughts, and more. During the peak of it, a friend turned me on to Linkin Park, saying they were an outlet for her and helped her thru some stuff. We were about 13 or 14 and in the grand scheme of things, I’m sure our problems weren’t massive. But they were difficult and we were struggling in our own ways.

Linkin Park’s music was the first band where their songs instantly connected with me. They resonated and they made me feel like i wasn’t alone. Chester Bennington’s voice definitely helped me through some seemingly dark days and I still use them now as a go to when I was having a rough day. Sometimes, you just need music to scream to so you can get all the darkness out. Eventually, I got help and I found the light again. But I’m not sure if that process still would have been jumpstarted if I hadn’t found this band at that pivotal moment.

Which is why Bennington’s suicide was a straight gut shot. He helped me, as well as thousands of fans, through some really dark, difficult times. And I’m sure he saved a countless amount of lives with his music. Listening to his  music now, it’s different. It’s apparent he was crying out for help in his songs and though we found the light and we’re no longer one step closer to the edge, I so wish he could have found that same light himself. I wish he found what we all found in his music.

May his family be able to heal and may Chester not only rest in peace but may he finally have found it.

If you are suicidal or depressed right now, PLEASE REACH OUT TO SOMEONE. Either to me, a close confidant, or either of these two lines below. 

The National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255 

The Trevor Project:  1-866-488-7386 

Both networks have chat or text options available if you are unable to talk on the phone. They are also 100% free & confidential.

You are so needed, so valued, and so loved. You are worth every single breath you take, even when it doesn’t feel like it. Please reach out and know that I believe in you. You’ve got this and you are needed beyond measure. There is a light, it will flicker and dim but let someone help you find it again. 

Leonard Cohen and this year’s music losses

Oh, Leonard Cohen. How can you pass away on us, especially this year? If you’ve ever heard the cover ‘Hallelujah’, you NEED to listen to his version, the original one. It’s haunting and you can listen to it here.

I grew up on this kind of music and my love of songs you can sing along with or belt in the car knows absolutely no bounds. I love the depth of his voice and how no matter who sings it, the lyrics just seem to pierce into your soul. Absolutely love it when a song can do that over and over again, time and time again.

This year has been rough on the music industry as well as the arts in general. We’ve lost Prince, David Bowie, and now Leonard Cohen. It’s such a buzzkill! But in other news, we are getting so close to Christmas! Who all is in holiday mood? I know I am. Now if only I could figure out what to get for everybody on my gift list……