Halsey “Bad at Love”

Holy wow, this song hits home. It’s almost like Halsey is trying to take my own relationship history and made it her own. Listen to it here. But anyway, I’m obsessed with this song and can’t stop listening.

The opening lyrics “got a boy back home in Michigan/and it tastes like Jack when I’m kissing him/so I told him that I never really liked his friends/Now he’s gone and he’s calling me a bitch again” basically sums up the first boy I fell in love with. He was no good, sick in more ways than ones, and was a compulsive liar. So naturally 19 year old me thought I could save him, when in reality I couldn’t, and years later, he came crawling back to apologize. Something I still don’t think I’ll ever be able to fully accept or condone.

But the song goes on depicting what I’m assuming has been some of Halsey’s failed relationships and she thinks she’s ‘bad at love’. There’s something to be sad when you’ve had multiple failed relationships where you start wondering if it’s really just them or if maybe you’ve done something to contribute as well. It’s tough, though, opening up to someone new romantically when all you’ve been thru is pain. I mean, she sums it up in the lyrics, “lookin at my history/I’m bad at love”.

This song also made me realize just how lucky I am to be in the relationship that I’m currently in. He knows all my faults, where I struggle, and how to pick me back up while motivating me all the same. And I like to think I know the same about him. It’s really a fantastic feeling to finally feel like I’m actually good at this whole love thing and it’s so refreshing.

Anyway, listen to this song. I’m sure you can relate to at least part of it, if not all of it. It’s a refreshing song to hear because it’s honest, raw, and deep. Something I don’t think the music scene, especially pop, has enough of anymore. Music is popular for a reason and it might as well do some good with the lyrics. But maybe I’m just a lyric fiend and I’m the only one who feels that way.

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The New Kesha Album

Okay, so I know I talked about one of Kesha’s latest singles here BUT i have to talk about her album, ‘Rainbow’. (sorry Mom) it’s fucking fantastic. I want this to be my life soundtrack. Each song is straight fire, as the kids would say these days.

You have your more emotional songs like ‘Praying’ or ‘Rainbow’ that secretly make you want to cry but also rejoice in the fact that somebody finally understands the nuances of trauma and pain. Then you have ‘Woman’ and ‘Let Em Talk’ that just make you want to dance. I’m actually obsessed with this album and i haven’t felt like this about an entire album in close to years.

It may help that I relate to Kesha’s current legal struggles or her open dialogue about mental health. Or it may help that her first albums were straight up how i got ready for fraternity parties or girls nights out. I have a lot of really solid memories associated with Kesha and I have absolutely no shame about that.

This album makes me feel like I’m covered in glitter, sunshine, and rainbows. But without the lasting effects of finding glitter in your shower 6 months later. I am SO excited that Kesha is putting new music out and I cannot wait to have this album on repeat on Spotify and iTunes.

Don’t forget to support your local artists. They need to make money too, even if you think they already make enough.

‘Praying’ by Kesha

First of all, I am all for the #freekesha hashtag that was flooding social media last year and for  good reason. She’s been thru hell & back and her new music is phenomenal. It’s powerful, wonderful, and makes you want to get up & dance. But the one so far that’s really hit home for me is ‘Praying’.

People have made the assumption that the song is about Dr. Luke and the sexual assault allegations last year made by Kesha. Now, this song has some pretty legit trigger warnings but it’s also cathartic. The song isn’t at all what I thought it would be. It’s almost like it’s a letter from Kesha to Dr. Luke (assuming this is who the song is about), hoping he’s found peace and that she’s found power in her voice again.

If you’ve ever been thru something traumatic and are in a place to relatively forgive hte cause of it, this song is for you. It’s a beautifully poignant yet haunting song that will pull at your heart strings and make you want to cry. Take a listen to it wherever you listen to your music (spotify, amazon, itunes….) and support your music monetarily when you can. Especially one as vibrant and as strong as Kesha.

Favourite lyrics: Well, you almost had me fooled/Told me that I was nothing without you/Oh, but after everything you’ve done/I can thank you for how strong I have become 

 

 

Chester Bennington and Linkin Park

TW: this post talks about suicide and mental health. Please take care of yourself first

My heart is hurting this week. As I’m sure several people have let you know already, Chester Bennington, the lead singer of Linkin Park (and the Stone Temple Pilots for a hot minute), hung himself Thursday morning. His memory is survived by a loving wife and 6 amazing children.

As I’ve talked about with other singers like Prince or George Michael, this one hurt. This one struck close to home and was gut wrenching. Similar to Bennington, I’ve struggled with mental health, suicidal thoughts, and more. During the peak of it, a friend turned me on to Linkin Park, saying they were an outlet for her and helped her thru some stuff. We were about 13 or 14 and in the grand scheme of things, I’m sure our problems weren’t massive. But they were difficult and we were struggling in our own ways.

Linkin Park’s music was the first band where their songs instantly connected with me. They resonated and they made me feel like i wasn’t alone. Chester Bennington’s voice definitely helped me through some seemingly dark days and I still use them now as a go to when I was having a rough day. Sometimes, you just need music to scream to so you can get all the darkness out. Eventually, I got help and I found the light again. But I’m not sure if that process still would have been jumpstarted if I hadn’t found this band at that pivotal moment.

Which is why Bennington’s suicide was a straight gut shot. He helped me, as well as thousands of fans, through some really dark, difficult times. And I’m sure he saved a countless amount of lives with his music. Listening to his  music now, it’s different. It’s apparent he was crying out for help in his songs and though we found the light and we’re no longer one step closer to the edge, I so wish he could have found that same light himself. I wish he found what we all found in his music.

May his family be able to heal and may Chester not only rest in peace but may he finally have found it.

If you are suicidal or depressed right now, PLEASE REACH OUT TO SOMEONE. Either to me, a close confidant, or either of these two lines below. 

The National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255 

The Trevor Project:  1-866-488-7386 

Both networks have chat or text options available if you are unable to talk on the phone. They are also 100% free & confidential.

You are so needed, so valued, and so loved. You are worth every single breath you take, even when it doesn’t feel like it. Please reach out and know that I believe in you. You’ve got this and you are needed beyond measure. There is a light, it will flicker and dim but let someone help you find it again. 

Rita Ora ‘Your Song’

To be completely honest, at first I thought this was Rita Ora doing a cover of Elton John’s infamous ‘Your Song’. And this is the first time I’ve been perfectly content to be wrong when it goes to Sir Elton John.

First off, I’ve only recently discovered Rita Ora and to say i’m obsessed would be a disservice to her talent. She’s from the old country (England) and her songs are just uplifting enough to make you want to dance but they often also are a straight shot to the feels as well. And this song isn’t any different.

It’s basically a song about the honeymoon phase in a relationship. You know what I’m talking about, those butterflies in your stomach that won’t stop dancing in your abdomen and that awful waiting time for them to text you back. But she does this in a way where you really capture that excitement only known in the beginning stages of a relationship. For me, at least, this song gets me good.

It perfectly describes the girl that isn’t used to falling in love but does. And it’s new and it’s uncomfortable and it’s weird, but damn, does it feel amazing. This song is me starting off my relationship with my current boyfriend. #blessed #seenoevilmonkeyemoji.

If you haven’t gotten a chance to hear this song, check it out on Youtube.  I promise it’ll make you believe in love again as well as want to hit the dance floor with that person who’s caught your eye recently.

Favourite lyric: I think I’m falling/I’m not proud/But I’m usually the type of girl that would hit and run.

 

Songs I Can’t Stop Listening To pt. 2

It’s Memorial Day, I’m sitting in one of my favourite coffee shops here in Dallas, and in order to stop thinking about all our fallen soldiers & those who are still MIA, I decided to create a playlist of all the songs I can’t stop listening to right now.

  1. Sam Hunt “Body Like A Backroad” Um, can we just talk about Sam Hunt for a sec? That guy is ridiculously talented and if my boyfriend serenaded me with this, I’m not sure how long I’d last.
  2. Bonnie Raitt “Give Them Something to Talk About” This song reminds me of childhood. I loved Bonnie Raitt and I would dance around our living room to this song without a single care in the world. I probably needed dance lessons but whatever.
  3. Ed Sheeran “Galway Girl” Ugh, Ed Sheeran. Why do i feel the incessant need to be best friends with you? I love this song and I will sing every word.
  4. Shawn Mendes ” There’s Nothing Holding Me Back” Guilty pleasure right here. I love this song and its fun to blast on the freeway.
  5. James Arthur “Say You Won’t Let Go”  I want to walk down the aisle to this song. It perfectly encompasses everything I feel about the current person I’m dating. #mushymuch?

And there you have it! As I’m sure you’ve been able to tell, I have a weird mix of music that I’ll listen to. And i’m thinking of doing posts like this maybe once a month or so? Let me know what you think in the comments! Also, if you have any songs you can’t stop listening to, let me know!

Flogging Molly and Skinny Lister

So Monday night, I found out that Flogging Molly was playing at the House of Blues Tuesday night. And small secret, seeing them live has always been on my bucket list. Combine that with the main room at the House of Blues? It was basically a necessity that I went. So I asked my boyfriend if he wanted to have an impromptu date night in the middle of the week, listen to some irish punk music, and dance on a work night. Maybe it’s my charm or my level of excitement but he said yes.

So we did dinner and the concert. We were even able to jump the line because we spent money in the restaurant! Fun fact, if you get dinner and it’s above the minimum, you can jump the line at the House of Blues and get in 20 or so minutes early. This allowed us to get to the front of the mosh pit with the best seats in the entire venue. Standing room only but it was worth it


The opening band, Skinny Lister, was a band I’d never heard of before but they were SO much fun. They passed around a huge jug of what I’m assuming was either guiness or distilled whiskey. Luckily it was out before it reached me because the smell was awful. But if you have a chance, SEE THIS BAND. I’m usually not a fan of opening bands but these guys were hilarious, charming, and the most irish ever.

Now to the main event. Flogging Molly and Irish punk reminds me of home. I spent some time growing up in London and we traveled to Ireland frequently because of my dad’s work. So Ireland always just felt like a second home at the time. And Flogging Molly (along with Dropkick Murphys and the like) make me realize just how lucky i was to have grown up there.

Especially with the terrorist attack near London Parliament on Wednesday, it seemed even better timing that I had a taste of home with seeing FLogging Molly live. They were hilarious, the lead singer is probably in his 50s and absolutely killed it. Their enthusiasm was infectious and you could tell they thoroughly enjoyed what they did.

I love concerts where you can tell that the bands, no matter how many shows they’ve played, are still completely in love with what they do. And Flogging Molly was no different. I was pulled into their stories, how avidly they loved Guiness, and how stoked they were to simply be alive.

If you have the chance, go see Flogging Molly live. They’re brilliant. Even more so if Skinny Lister is opening. And hug your loved ones. Terrorism knows no boundaries and it knows not of where you come from.