First off, this band name is awesome. Second of all, fun fact — I’m allergic to bees. Like not, hit me with an EpiPen immediately kind of allergic. But more like, I swell like an engorged balloon kind of allergic. And finally, this song could not have come into my life at a more crucial moment. Funny how the universe works like that sometimes.
Recently, I’m all about taking care of myself, because if we’re being honest with ourselves, I suck at it. I run myself dry and I stress myself out and it’s a vicious cycle. So recently, I’ve been actually scheduling self-care into my day and it’s been fantastic. It can be something as simple as a face mask or putting on a funny show or even just meditating. But it’s been fantastic. And I really hope I can keep this trend up.
Anyway, I was studying for some grad school stuff and listening to Spotify (#notsponsored) then boom. This song came on and was a straight shot to the feels. The vibe I got from it was that it’s about someone in a committed relationship and their partner is mildly concerned about their mental health. Can I relate? Definitely.
The vibe continues that some days are terrible and other days are awesome. Then some days are just, well, days. Where you’re not necessarily struggling or thriving but still somehow just trying to hold on & survive for the next few moments. And I love it. I feel like talking about mental health is still so taboo in this country for a variety of reasons and I love it when songs or different forms of media actually take time to address it. And address what it’s really like to struggle when your brain decides to have other plans.
Listen to the song here.
Mental health is something I could go on and on about. It’s something deeply personal to me and something I try to always be honest about in an effort to break the stigma but also help myself in the process. Listen to this song not only when you need something that understands but when you need the inspiration to take care of yourself. I promise in more ways than I can count that taking care of yourself is not selfish. It’s absolutely necessary and something I still find myself needing to remind myself every so often.
As always, if you’re struggling, please for the love of Christ, reach out to somebody you trust. If nobody fits that bill, please reach out to a hotline — whether it’s text or call based. You are so valued, needed, and loved that it’s almost ridiculous. I know it doesn’t always feel like that but I promise that it’s true.
Favourite lyrics: of all the thousand ways the world could tempt me/I’ve never met a better fighter than her fear