Holy wow, this song hits home. It’s almost like Halsey is trying to take my own relationship history and made it her own. Listen to it here. But anyway, I’m obsessed with this song and can’t stop listening.
The opening lyrics “got a boy back home in Michigan/and it tastes like Jack when I’m kissing him/so I told him that I never really liked his friends/Now he’s gone and he’s calling me a bitch again” basically sums up the first boy I fell in love with. He was no good, sick in more ways than ones, and was a compulsive liar. So naturally 19 year old me thought I could save him, when in reality I couldn’t, and years later, he came crawling back to apologize. Something I still don’t think I’ll ever be able to fully accept or condone.
But the song goes on depicting what I’m assuming has been some of Halsey’s failed relationships and she thinks she’s ‘bad at love’. There’s something to be sad when you’ve had multiple failed relationships where you start wondering if it’s really just them or if maybe you’ve done something to contribute as well. It’s tough, though, opening up to someone new romantically when all you’ve been thru is pain. I mean, she sums it up in the lyrics, “lookin at my history/I’m bad at love”.
This song also made me realize just how lucky I am to be in the relationship that I’m currently in. He knows all my faults, where I struggle, and how to pick me back up while motivating me all the same. And I like to think I know the same about him. It’s really a fantastic feeling to finally feel like I’m actually good at this whole love thing and it’s so refreshing.
Anyway, listen to this song. I’m sure you can relate to at least part of it, if not all of it. It’s a refreshing song to hear because it’s honest, raw, and deep. Something I don’t think the music scene, especially pop, has enough of anymore. Music is popular for a reason and it might as well do some good with the lyrics. But maybe I’m just a lyric fiend and I’m the only one who feels that way.